~ in loving memory
As I pour over my medical records that have been compiled in the past few years and read highlighted diagnosis such at “Anxiety” “Depression” “PTSD” I am left feeling kind of empty and thinking to myself how did this all come to be? I recall myself as a young girl full of promise andRead more about That’s Not who I am[…]
Reflections of time – The long and the short! April 4th 2017 I hated hearing “Time heals all wounds” back in the beginning. I almost felt indignant about this phrase when the cards poured into my mailbox in the weeks, months following Rehtaeh’s death. I was overwhelmed with gratitude for the love I received andRead more about Reflections of Time – The long and the short[…]
Many years ago I read “Anatomy of the Spirit” by Caroline Myss and it was so fascinating. I started and finished the book in a small cabin in Hants Co in just a few days.The concept that we carry our emotions in our physical bodies made so much sense to me but I had notRead more about Food for the Body/Soul[…]
October 4th – 3yrs 5months. I continue on this journey of life, loss and deep deep emotions. Sometimes, I forget my own advice and feel disappointed when the darkness arrives seeping into the cells of my being. I embrace my triumphs often and sometimes I feel very “warrior” like but when I feel the 4thRead more about The Grief Journey[…]
August 4th…I have not been paying attention to the dates lately. I knew Natal Day was August 1st but with summer off with the kids the dates seem to be blending together. However, the last couple of nights I had several dreams of Rehtaeh. Of course the dreams often result in her being here withRead more about Wisdom of the Body/Mind[…]
The last week of March feels like a wet heavy blanket edging its way from my feet to my chins and upwards covering me inch by inch. Each day unfolds holding the dark reminder that April is arriving. Isn’t this a time of new beginnings? Isn’t this a time to come out of our winterRead more about April 4th 2016 marks 3 yrs[…]
Some Thoughts about PTSD…. Exploring the Depths I never truly understood what PTSD truly is.. I was living with it for years and never even knew that I had PTSD No one ever explained my past traumas to me in this way. I thought ONLY people who experienced trauma in war experienced PTSD. I thoughtRead more about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Exploring the Depths[…]
January was rough, rough, rough emotionally and physically but spiritually there has been so much growth. We often hear about the decline of one’s health after loss/grief/emotional trauma and I truly understand this now and how it has been this way for the past couple of years. The emotions that we carry have special pocketsRead more about Life LOVES us![…]
Reflections on the month include a look back at 2015. In order to arrive in 2016 it’s important for me to reflect. I have never been a resolution type of person but I do like to focus on intentions to help keep me focused. The month of December was a challenge but I look backRead more about January 2016 – Reflections and Arriving at new year[…]
December 4th Reflections I could feel December coming for weeks like a dark cloud. As each week/day brought me closer to December my chest felt heavier, the pain in my hips more intense. I reminded myself to take deep breaths as I continually noticed my shallow breathing patterns. I touch my hand to my heartRead more about December’s Reflections[…]